I have really been meaning to start a blog for quite some time now... I did start one actually, about three years ago. It failed however after I posted a single post and never put up another one. Initially I wanted to write about food and recipes but now it seems that there is so much more to share. Not to worry, since cooking and trying new recipes is such a big part of my life, I am sure it will be hard to leave that topic out completely... This time around, I wanted to make my blog a much more personal place than just food. And I figure, if I can put up more than just one post, that automatically makes it way better than the last one... ;)
If you have made it this far you probably already know me. You know that I am a nurse, I live in North Carolina, have three cats and a dog, recently got married to the most amazing, thoughtful, and handsome man that I have ever met, am a vegan, can crochet/sew/craft all day and still have a list of 37 projects that I want to make, that I enjoy scooter rides (but almost never drive it myself as it makes me too nervous to be alone on the road), like to do yoga, enjoy photography, and that the mountains are one of my favorite places in the world to be. Okay, so maybe you didn't know all those things, but probably most of them. So there is no need for a super long formal introduction here..
What maybe you don't know about me, is some fun and exciting plans my wild little mind has been making lately... You see, it started sometime last November, of twenty eleven. Right after we returned from our annual trip to DC to visit Eriks family for Thanksgiving. We got home, and shortly afterwards I developed a Fever. This was no ordinary fever.. Tylenol wouldn't do a thing for this one. The doctor has no medicine. You see, this was a fever of a different sort. This was... the baby Fever. Not at all expected, not at all planned. It was like someone flipped a switch in me overnight. At first it confused me. The plan was to wait until we had been married for at least a year before we even started to
think of all that baby stuff. If you had asked me two months ago, babies were cute and cuddly and I knew it was in the plans someday but that day was definitely not right now, for I had other plans. We were actually in the process of planning a summer trip to Europe for this year. Switzerland, Italy, Germany, France, and likely England we were going to visit. We had researched plane tickets, cities we wanted to visit, Castles I was dying to see... A baby would get in the way of all that and really change the romantic trip we had been looking forward to. Also, after the wedding I started investigating the possibility of a career change into photography with the hopes of starting up my own photography business. Plus we were newly married, and why rush into something we seem to have the rest of our lives for? Well that all changed the day I came down with The Fever. Suddenly the trip to Europe seemed like a waste of money that could be better spent on baby-related expenses. Who really cares about the Neuschwanstein Castle anyway?! In fact, all things that once seemed important went out the window in my mind. I had a new set of priorities, which somehow included onesies, diapers, and a desire for 3am feedings... At first I had to let it settle in my mind to make sure I wasn't going crazy for lack of sleep, vitamins, or some other such problem. I had to keep it to myself for a bit, I couldn't say these words out loud to even Erik in case the thoughts just went away on their own and the problem resolved itself. But it didn't. The Fever just got worse. When I brought it up to Erik finally, it had to be in a casual way since I was dropping quite the bomb and I knew it... It was something like, "I work until 4 today, Lucy has already been out, I am making sweet potato cakes for dinner tonight, and by the way, how do you feel about having a baby sometime soonish?" Well, maybe it wasn't just like that, but it still didn't make Erik any less surprised when I brought it up. After the initial shock wore off, and we had many good long talks on the topic, I could tell the wheels in his mind were starting to turn... Not that I ever had to convince him that this was a good idea or anything. We have said from the very beginning that we both very much want children, and often discuss what they will be like, who is going to help them with their math homework (not me!), how we are going to raise vegan babies, etc.. It was more the idea of speeding up the timeline that caught him off guard... However, it wasn't too long before he started to show some symptoms of the very same Fever that I had acquired not long before. Wouldn't you know, it seems to be contagious!
Fast forward about six weeks and we are at the present moment. The idea of adding to our family is now becoming a very real possibility in the soonish future. Lot's (and I mean LOTS) of homework has been doing regarding the topic, how we are going to fit this plan into our lives financially, physically, and emotionally. The majority of my time researching the financial aspect has been spent on the phone with insurance companies, trying to figure out the cost of the prenatal care and birth itself. Once that was figured out, it made the rest seem easy! And I have to keep the advice of friends and family in mind when it comes to making plans such as these... If everyone waited until they were 100% ready in terms of having enough money, the perfect job, and the perfect house, well no one would ever have kids! So, to sum this up because it is now late and my dear husband is trying to sleep next to me, I will say that obviously this is a huge decision, and not something we are taking lightly.
Another thing I will say, is that for right now this blog will be kept private. I will share it with y'all when I am good and ready, I promise! For now I want to avoid all of the obvious questions and discussions that come with the territory when people know you are in the process of family planning. I wanted to document this time of our lives though so I can look back and remember what was going on and how I was feeling during this whole process. A diary blog I guess you could say. A Blogiary! Haha... Okay it's late and my mind is just getting silly. Much more to come, so stay tuned...